Wednesday, July 23, 2014

lets talk patience.

Patience is one of those elusive traits for soon as I'm on the verge of gaining some, circumstances arise that push me over the edge. I am impulsive, impatient, impossible. So often do I ask the Lord to give me grace and patience, and He responds with circumstances that make patience almost impossible. Why. Learning is not an instantaneous occurrence, learning takes time, trial and error and practice. I am given stupid annoying problems, annoying people, frustrating circumstances to teach me how to wait, breathe, trust and be still. I would like to say my patience has grown, but I have a feeling that this will by my lifelong struggle..the thorn in my side if you will. I am so weak in this area, but how neat is it that God has more than enough patience. He has patience with my impatience, does that make sense? I don't know, all I know is that I will never measure up nor have enough patience to measure up with the amount he has to have with me on a daily basis. I feel like a rebellious 8 year old. I am a wanderer, a rebel, a stubborn idiot, a fool. But He loves me just the same. What.

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

freaking los angeles

so lily and i have been looking forward to the melrose trading post for like two months. and the day had finally come. we started off the day being the first people at the post, getting a great parking spot and the first pick at the best stuff. i bought a kimono (pictured) and some rings and a neat map. then we went to TASTE which was TASTE-y, then drove down Rodeo and made our way over to Bottega Louie for some freaking expensive macaroons. We made it over to the Glendale Galleria and lived our California lives well. Thanks lil for a great day, and thanks LA for being greater than ever.

Sunday, March 2, 2014

Friday, February 28, 2014

Monday, February 24, 2014

monday mo0dz

im all about dem mo0o0dy m0ndayz. sincerely this day was filled with anxiety/hot flashes. these pictures were meant to express my post teenaged angst. did i do a good job? heh.

Sunday, February 9, 2014

feeling urban.

this weekend i felt super urban and stuff. between a trip to salvation and to the farmers market, i sure got my fix of pretty things. I've been really into odds and ends and what better place to find them than a graveyard for discarded lovelies. shoes are always a given, so whenever i find a remotely sweet pair of shoes i purchase it, hoping it will fit in some manner or another. the boots are snug, what else is new. i love plants of all kinds, these little succulents are just too much, i replanted them in clay pots also found at salvation. 5cents each. the old potpourri container might be my favorite, it still holds remnants of some old woman's favorite scent, patchouli, which i am not quite a fan of, but i am a fan of history and a story. glass bottles are a new thing of mine, i surely do love them and i hope to have a shelfful by the end of the month. also..that shirt you see there, its pretty neat. anyways, good weekend for me. 

Thursday, February 6, 2014

something i adore: dried flowers

rainy days call for reflection of something sweeter than what is going on outside…so i choose to reflect on something i find as one of the loveliest things: dried flowers. i might even like them better than live one at times. the dead rose i found in my car surely did lovely up my day.

something i adore: puppies

so, for my job i got to go travel to a neat little house that was for sale. and lo and behold, there were some mangy mutts welcoming me to an unfortunately dirty place. but, i will never say no to an opportunity to play with doggies so there i went, covering my lovely oxfords with dust and ripping my favorite burgundy tights. would i say that those pups were worth it? absolutely. they looked like they were fresh out of a sarah mclaughlin commercial, you know, the ones where you feel like you have to give your kidney to help a dog suffering from sun spots. anyways, i love dogs. ill play with them if they're even remotely fluffy and aren't foaming at the mouth. even then…there are always exceptions.

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

a place I adore: Disneyland

This place will forever hold my heart. I basically grew up here.. I learned about family, heartbreak, dole whip, the coffee buzz, secrets, adventures, kings, tyrants, kindness, patience, rudeness and much more. This place taught me more about life than most places ever could. 

oh, the places you go..or don't go

so have a blog now, a place to store my thoughts no matter how silly. thats pretty neat because i have a lot of thoughts to share. its like a diary of sorts, keeping tabs on who I've been and dreams of who i will be. i can't wait to go, to go out and go places. i love these pictures of feets, i love feets pictures because it captures a moment in time of a place where you have matter how normal. there is beauty in the mundane and mystery in the idea of where you'll go next. these pictures were taken on a short pathway often overlooked, but to me, this pathway was a secret garden of endless photo opportunities and beauty. i could have stayed there for a long long time taking silly pictures of things i view as lovely. this is just further proof that beauty can be found in the least expected places. and beauty to one is not beauty to another, but it is all beautiful in this world that God has created. there is life in everything, i vow to capture it, bask in it, adore it and care for it.

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

thoughts: this past break

"And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit." 2 Corinthians 3:18

I figured I would start talking about my sweet life since I am so in love with it. This verse has been the theme of my life for so long because it solidifies our purpose in life: to bring God his due glory and to be ever changed into the likeness of his perfect Son. This is the anthem of my life, through trials and through triumphs i am being changed from one degree of glory to the next into the likeness of my creator God and my savior of Man. This is the base of purpose for my life and through this theme, all other growth and love flows. 

this is my sweet wonderful family, the family who has taught me my world. this past break i have learned more from each of these people than i have in my whole life. through these amazing christ followers, i have learned what it means to be forgiving, selfless, passionate, simple, fierce, determined, joyful, and wise. This past break i learned what my purpose in life is for right now, for this stage that i have been placed in. I am to be the best sister i can possibly be. i am to facilitate his growth by actively spending time with him, reading with him, understanding him and treating him like the little blessing he is. i am to be the best daughter, being a good steward of what the good lord has blessed my dad with. i need to work hard in school and honor the sacrifices my father has made for me to go to a school like cbu. i need to be an awesome friend who loves unconditionally even if my friends are not worthy of it. I am to be a friend to the friendless and minister to those who's eyes have not yet been opened to the goodness of the lord. i am to be a graceful daughter of the king, practicing his mercy towards all the people i meet.
i am more excited for my life than anything because i know i am being used by a mighty god.